Piece of cake

One Dr down and 2 more to go.  My opthomologist has scheduled cataract surgery on my right eye on May 16 at 7:00 am.  That time is just WRONG.  Not only am I going to feeling yucky, but I'm also going to be hungry and sleepy.  I know there is a law somewhere against early morning hours. (Sounds like naming Snow White's dwarfs - Yucky, Hungry, Sleepy...)


I am having an early "breakfast" tomorrow with some friends. We meet about every month just to get reacquainted.  We all have worked together at some or other and really enjoy catching up on all the stuff each one is doing.


After breakfast I go to see my cardiologist.  Mock is taking me as my eye doctor has "recommended" that I not drive a lot until after surgery, especially at night.  So, I'm pretty much stuck at the mercy of friends and family.  


The person I can't mention took me to the Dr. today as they dilated my pupils.  It was about 9:30 am, and it didn't start wearing off until around 4.  Good thing he was with me.  He even bought me lunch at Sweet Tomatoes.


While I was getting my eyes checked, we dropped off the car to have it serviced.  It only needed $1,000 worth of work done.  When I stated my surprise to the mechanic, he said I was getting a rebate of $100.  I said the only way I could get it done was getting a rebate of $1,000.  He laughed.  At least he has a sense of humor.


Ween had such a hard day, she has to take a nap.  I tell you eating, pooping and looking cute is a hard job, but somebody has to do it.

Here we go again

Wouldn't it be nice if we got paid, by the hour, for the time we spend in Dr's waiting rooms.  Man would I be rich.  Once again this week, I'm doing the Dr thing.  Monday - Optometrist; Tuesday - Pulmonary; Wednesday - Cardiologist.  The relative I'm not supposed to mention is taking me to the appt tomorrow as they dilate the pupils and it is not a good idea for me to drive afterward.

Mock is taking me Tuesday after breakfast with "The Motley Crue" at Cracker Barrel.  Don't know about Wednesday yet.  I haven't been able to talk anyone into taking me.  I hate having to depend on someone else to take me places. It's been suggested that I NOT drive as I'm still experiencing a type of vertigo and my vision is still "suspect" as to sharpness of being able to see.

I had to reschedule my appointments at Mayo as I just couldn't drive there, physically.  They have rescheduled for June.  Long time.  We'll see how things go.

I am scheduled to start therapy, that's physical not mental, on May 9.  I can't wait to go.  It will be at Celebration Hospital and they have a pool.  I really NEED to exercise.  We'll see how my heart does with this; hopefully it will happen.

Ween and I are "holding down the couch" again today.  I didn't get to go to church for several reason, and I miss not being able to go.  Hopefully I will be COMPLETELY WHOLE soon and I can get back to "DOING" and not just sitting around.  I am thanking God for making me whole.  I can't wait to get started on my "projects."

MY GREAT GOD

Bless the Lord, Oh my soul, and all that is within me bless His Holy name.


Bless the Lord, Oh my soul, and all that is within me bless His Holy name.


He has done great things.  He has done great things.  


He has done great things.  Bless His Holy name.

Things

Throughout my life, there have been many things that I have experienced. While I was pondering this day, I said to myself, "Self-there are some things I NEVER want to do again." I began to re-form that list in my head.

I NEVER WANT TO:

1.   ride a roller coaster.

2.   use a bathroom in Tijuana, Mexico.

3.   eat or drink something I don't know what it is.

4.   go on a hay ride.

5.   drive through Georgia.

6.   have another surgery.

7.   wear high heel shoes.

8.    buy another outfit because a friend says it looks good on me.

9.    visit the "museum" at Cedar Key.

10.   buy another car that is NOT a convertible.

Ten are enough for now, but obviously there are more.  Stay tuned.

Not Today

Sometimes it seems, I think, in my blogs that I am lackadaisical about my life especially with my health or, money or most anything I ramble on about. Usually not so.  I do a "stream of consciousness" writing - whatever pops into my mind at the moment goes on the page.  That is not to say I don't do anything about circumstances or do not have moments of lucidity where I can actually know what is going on and what to do.  DOES THAT MAKE SENSE? I'm not sure.

Some have expressed concern about me.  I covet prayers - always.  I truly want guidance from God.  And, I NEVER want to forget His goodness.  But I HONESTLY don't worry about anything.  I have some concerns.  I seek wisdom.  I also seek mercy and grace.

We have a fairly good relationship - God and me.  He knows me.  He speaks to me.  I TRY to listen carefully. I used to say to Tom that I was the "balloons" the clown in "my Circus" was carrying and he was the clown holding onto the strings.  (We all know what happens if you let go of the string.)  I do have a tendency to fly around the room backwar, but not without God holdling onto the balloons.

I am in ALMOST constant contact with my doctors.  I have been to four or five this week.  I had a new "stress" test and multiple blood tests.  (I thought I had enough stress in my life.)  My C-pap machine has been changed to a newer and better one; I AM RESTING,  as I was told.  I'm not to have stress in my life right now.  (I told Dr Alabi that if I had any less stress I would be catatonic.)  Medicines have been regulated.  And, I am in the process of having additional testing for my heart.

They have determined that something isn't working correctly with the pumping of the blood flow.  Ween is taking good care of me and we are "holding down the couch" as much as possible.

Please continue the prayers.  Don't be too concerned.  I will keep you posted as to any changes.  I have decided whatever happens is a WIN/WIN situation. And, God is in control.

Garbage v Who I Am

Getting through all the garbage to WHOLENESS is like swimming in mousse (chocolate of course.) I don't know whether to paddle or start licking. Either one can get me into a mess.

I was to go to the local elementary school this week to help with testing. I went on Monday. Sat for 2 hrs and came home. Totally unnecessary as the teacher likes to have TOTAL control of her classroom. I would have loved to have been that organized, but it didn't happen for me.

I had a weird day, physically in that I sweated almost the whole time. I couldn't figure out what was wrong. Being exhausted, after I got home I slept until about 6pm. Getting something to eat was an effort, so I went back to sleep for the night. The next day, after getting ready I had some sort of "EPISODE" where I had the vertigo again and could not stand up. I thought it was some sort of seizure but Mock said it was a small stroke. I couldn't go to the school nor anywhere else for that matter. I was nauseated, had a strange "pulling" sensation in my right side (neck and arm) and had trouble talking. Mock said I slurred my words but I didn't hear that.

Again today I could not go to the school.  I am still feeling the vertigo and nausea.  I had felt so good for so long that I thought I could actually do something to help.  I hate that I couldn't work it out, and am embarrassed that I couldn't. I hope they are as understanding as they seem.

The garbage I am having to get through to WHOLENESS is interesting. God knows what it will take to get to TOTAL renewal.  Thank you God.

D-DAY

Classroom testing, in my opinion, is wasted time and gives you meaningless information.  With all things being even, which they aren't, it MIGHT be helpful to know where to start with sharing information for children to learn.  That would be helpful not the wanted end result.  Tests have a tendency to tell you what a person DOESN'T know, not what they DO know.

ALL PEOPLE ARE DIFFERENT WITH DIFFERENT EXPERIENCES, AND LEARN AT DIFFERENT RATES.

With that in mind, I have volunteered to proctor at my local elementary school for the FCAT, which starts today.  Interesting, if not enjoyable.  I don't know if I'm ready to be back in a classroom setting or not.  We'll see.  I haven't been there before today so I this is a new experience for me.  It's like my first day of school.  Wow.  I hope I can find the bathroom.

Summers

The summers were more exciting than the regular school year.  I liked school, don't get me wrong.  I still do.  I love reading, learning, and finding out what I DON'T know.  (There is so much)  Summer was different.  The wake-up time wasn't as early.  My mother still made sure I didn't sleep.  It must have been something in her childhood that made her think that sleeping late was a sin or close to it.  She always had some sort of NOISE factor that would wake me about 8 every morning.  My truly favorite was the washing machine. Why, pray tell, did the washing have to be done on Saturday?  My mother was a "stay at home" Mother and could have washed any time during the week. But, Nooooooooooooooo.  It had to be on Saturday at O:dark 30.

I slept on the second floor.  The washing machine was in the basement three floors away.  How she managed to get that machine loud enough to wake me, I'll never know.  I just know that as an adult, I am very considerate of when I wash my clothes. And, I hate being awaken by loud noises.

Another favorite noise was the tree trimmers.  That was also done at the crack of "chickens waking" on Saturday.  I could never figure that out during my twelve summers of being out of school. (The chickens were annoyed too.)

The important part of Summer was that I got to go to Vacation Bible School at all the different churches in the tiny berg where I lived.  My mother didn't realize that I actually liked going.  What could be better than learning about Jesus, making crafts, eating snacks, seeing friends socially, and not having to do work at the house.    (The Baptist church had the best snacks.)

I also got to wander about in the wooded areas that were there.  I'd climb the hill close to our house; sit on the side and look all around the area.  An aerial view is totally different from ground level views. Big things don't seem as intimidating up there.  And the things you could find - arrowheads, "golden rocks," footprints, each thing was an adventure.

There comes a time when you have to stop going to Vacation Bible School, quit the adventures in the woods, and become an adult.  It's really a shame.  I remember that girl.  She actually enjoyed life.  Poor thing.  She didn't know any better.  I wonder what became of her.

Whole or Healed

Being WHOLE can be compared to the Jewish term "SHALOM."   

(Hebrew word meaning peace, completeness, and welfare and can be used idiomatically to mean both hello and goodbye.  As it does in English, it can refer to either peace between two entities (especially between man and God or between two countries), or to the well-being, welfare or safety of an individual or a group of individuals.)

"Shalom" is usually used for the TOTAL aspect of a life.  That is also what the term "WHOLE" means.  Spiritual, Mental, Physical, Financial; whatever is involved in the "Total Person" is included in being WHOLE.  

Being "HEALED" deals with a process.  Where to start?  What to include?  How to accomplish this goal? I have asked for WHOLENESS. I no longer want to just be healed. I want to be WHOLE!  As a child of the Most High God, this is possible.  

I am asking my "ABBA" Father for WHOLENESS.  I am heir to the Kingdom of God.  He loves me and is in control.  I AM WHOLE!

Ode to Ween

When there is no one to turn to - Ween is there
When I need a partner in crime - Ween is there
When there is a need for someone to help finish my meal - Ween is there
Give me a W; Give me an E; Give me another E; Give me an N
What is the sweetest word I hear - WEEN; WEEN; WEEN.


She is playing my "Saran Wrap" lovie.  She hasn't been more than 18 inches from me since I can came home.  She knows when I am sad and puts her head on my lap; when I hurt, she licks where I hurt without being told; she is kind; she is loving; she doesn't ask for much.  She even forgives when I forget to feed and water her.  How much more can you ask from a companion.  It's true.  The more I learn about men, the more I love my dog.

The Week From ?

The week was not the worst of my life, but it was right up there in the top twenty of all rotten times.  I had 4 days of testing due and ending the week in Jacksonville with April 7 being noted.  Everyone knows the saying goes, "Best Laid Plans of Mice and Men often go astray."

Monday was to be a rest day from the "crazy" cruise and visit to EPCOT, etc. That was blown when I discovered I needed to do about a "Gadzillion" errands before I had to leave - pick up a prescription, dog food at the health food store, allergy shots, and the list goes on.

Tuesday tests from the neurologist.  I was there early, made to wait for testing - 45 minutes of listening to the receptionist and the "tester" person eject the Spanish language about a guy that neither one liked, but he was fun sometimes. The actual test took about 20 minutes. Diagnosis was carpal tunnel in both hands, pinched nerve in the neck, and an extreme deficiency of B12. Now I had another errand to get the sublingual B12 tablets.  (It took several stops to find them.)

More errands, wash clothes, drop off Ween to Bob, report to Celebration Hospital for a sleep study.  I had to sleep on my back, which I don't do well, so needless to say, I didn't rest well.  "Escaped" around 5:30, ran home and tried to wash the "glue" out of my hair, dressed for trip to Pasco for the eye specialist.  Also had to pack for the next 4 days as I was going to JAX after St Lukes test.

It took 2 hrs to get to St Lukes, traffic was horrendous on Hillsborough. Arrived around 9:30 for a 10:00 appointment.  After 5 minutes with ear specialist, he said he couldn't test me as I had said "Yes" to one of the questions and it was against the law for him to test me if I answered Yes to any of the questions on the paper I filled out.  Soooooooooooooo, it's 10:05 and my next appointment was 11:00.  After waiting until 11:30, one of the people there dilated my pupils again (which they said they were not going to do) and looked at my pupils again.  I had to wait to see the other doctor.  At 12:30 I decided I was too tired and too sick to deal with these people any more.  I told the receptionist that I had to leave. As I had not eaten all day, I called Vicki and met her at A & W Root Beer to get a hot dog, which sounded wonderful.  She had the girls, but it was great to see them.

My pupils were finally somewhat recovered and I decided to go home.  Called MAYO cancelled my appts and text Aida I wasn't coming.  After almost 2 1/2 hrs of gruelling traffic - wrecks all over I-275 and I-4 in Tampa.  Traffic was backed up over the Howard Franklin South, and way past entrance to I-4 to the North.  What a mess.  I took a "short cut" around Tampa and it only took about 45 minutes.  Outside of Tampa, traffic cleared and I made it to Bob's to pick up Ween in about 1 hr.

Ween and I were so happy to see each other, I went straight home and we both went to bed snuggling.  Thank God I have her.  She is so much company.

We went to Sonny's with Julie and Bret and girls Friday night.  I got sick and haven't felt well since. The last few times I've gone to Sonny's I've gotten sick.  I must eat too much.

My vision isn't good right now.  I don't know what makes the difference but I'm having trouble driving and watching TV.  Even typing this blog, I'm having trouble reading what I'm typing.  It's a good thing I have a spell checker and can touch type.

I don't know what is wrong.  I don't know what needs to be done, but I'm done testing.  I can't do this any more.  God has to do something.

Interesting If Not Enjoyable

Ten years ago I came a home from church and found my husband of 35 years dead on our bedroom floor. I knew my life would change, but I didn't realize how much.

During this time, I've made good choices and some not so good. It has certainly been interesting. In talking with Tom this week he made the statement that it seemed like another lifetime.

 In some ways it was another me and another place and time. In some ways I am not the person I used to be. I can only speculate Who I would have been. Certainly not remarried or maybe not even in Orlando, only God knows for sure. If God lets me live another 10 years, I'm sure that time will also "INTESTING, IF NOT ENJOYABLE.". (That was one of my favorite Tomisms.)

If It's Tuesday It Must Be Orlando

Two more days until my "AMA MARATHON."  Resting last week on the cruise was great but hitting the road running is the agenda for next week.

TUESDAY is my neurologist's testing.  I've been told to allow 2 hrs for this testing.  I also have to squeeze shopping, a haircut, laundry from the trip, take Ween to have her groomed, and anything else that needs to be done before I leave.

WEDNESDAY is getting Ween to Bob, who is supposed to be taking care of her while I am gone.  I would prefer taking her, but I can't figure out a way to do that.  A third sleep study test is on the agenda, but I don't have to be there before 8:00 pm.  My pulmonary doctor thinks my Bi-Pap machine needs to be adjusted.  It will also be my "cleanup" day to leave the apartment in good shape before I leave.

THURSDAY I'm in Pasco County having eye and ear testing.  St Lukes is one of the foremost eye clinics in the world.  Dr Gills has been on the "cutting edge" (no pun intended) of cataract surgery for the last 20 or 30 years.  My optometrist did not like what he saw on the last visit so he's doing further testing.  They also give hearing tests which is convenient as I actually do need to have one done. Killing two birds with one stone as the saying goes. Right now I'm planning to stay in Pasco with either Vicki or Kali, not sure which.  Kali wants to go to JAX so I may stay there and leave for Mayo early the next morning.  Plans are still up in the air for now.  It's a good thing I'm flexible.

FRIDAY a trip to JAX to Mayo.  I'm seeing my orthopedic doctor and bariatric nutritionist.  I don't look forward to seeing my nutritionist.  She has a soft voice but "chews me out" in a nice way. Having trouble with my back necessitates seeing the orthopedic doctor. It's not the bone spur that is the problem now, it's the other side and my spine.  If Kali goes, we'll probably stay on the beach.  If not, I'll stay with Aida and her kids; Always a great time.

SATURDAY is the 10th anniversary of Tom's death.  I always "hide out" on this day.  JAX beach is a great place to get lost.

That's my schedule.  If they can't find anything this time, I'm done.  I'm tired of the testing and the term "Well, it could be ..." I'll just tag myself a hypochondriac and be done with it. I'll have to come home to rest with Ween as my faithful companion.

What do I know

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THE FANTASY

Traveling is one of my favorite things to do, and when I get to travel with "the relative I can't mention," it is always first class and more.  This ship is named THE FANTASY, and it pretty much is just that-A real fantasy time.  Anything, and Everything.

Chandelier in Rotunda

The Boss and Me

If you are a cruiser, then Disney is the only way to sail.  Lush facilities, wonderful scrumptious food, music, activities for all ages, and an adult area if you don't feel the need to have children as part of your agenda.

Lunch at Enchanted Gardens

Disney is noted for their shows and fireworks at the parks, but the ship has not been left out-elaborate entertainment every night, with a full-blown fireworks show off the aft end.  Such amazing sites are available.

Welcome Drink

Having enough food on this cruise is not a problem either.  I ate at the Royal Court Restaurant for breakfast the second morning-Ham and cheese omelet, croissant, sausages, coffee, juice and a cappuccino to add to the experience.  There was so much to choose from it was hard to decide.  "How many different types of muffins, filled pastries, donuts, breads, can you possibly have?"  If you don't see it, ask for it and they probably have it available.

Room service menu is minimal, but they will fix ANYTHING they have if you want it.  I did a continental breakfast one morning, and a cheeseburger for lunch one day, but pretty much ate everything else in the restaurants.  First night was Royal Court and I ordered a duck appetizer, french onion soup, braised lamb with au gratin potatoes, green beans, and creme brulee for desert.  I also tasted someones escargot, and it was De licious.  Art decided I need my own experience so he ordered one for me.  I was so full I WADDLED out the door and moaned for several hours afterward.

Animator's Palate Show

Next night was Animator's Palate.  Wonderful breads and dips, appetizer trio with shrimp, ahi tuna, and prosciutto on a rectangular plate, popcorn soup that was the consistency of she crab soup only without the sherry with a small container of carmel corn to add to the soup, a type of "johnny cake" that they called cornbread, also a lobster entree with a green bean veggies , venison slices with purple slaw, dessert trio of cheesecake, banana creme brulee, and strawberry shortcake.  These were in small individual bowls on a rectangular dish similar to the appetizer.

Enchanted Garden was the last night. I had a chicken breast and a baked potato.  I was so full from overeating each day, I could only manage half of that.  Like I said, more food than you can imagine.

Castaway Cay

I've pretty much decided I'm not a cruiser.  My bathroom at home is decidedly larger.  I don't have to travel AFT or FORWARD for a mile outside my bedroom to get anywhere I want to be. And, I can raid my refrigerator when I want some snacky stuff. (Not necessary on ship) But most of all - my "FOOT WARMER" can also serve as a "face washer" all in one package.

It's not possible to remember everything even with notes, but this is a slight overview of the 4 days.  I was soooo glad to get home and so was my "saran wrap" dog.  I think she missed me.  I haven't told her about being gone next week.  We'll just surprise her.

THIS IS 'JUST' A TEST

Falling out of the shower wasn't exactly my idea of how to start the day, but too much soap can actually cause you to slip.  DUH!  Anyway, I don't think anything was damaged.

"The person I'm not supposed to mention" took me to St Luke's Eye Clinic in Tarpon Springs on Friday.  We were there 4 hrs.  I thought they would NEVER get finished.  I knew they were going to dilate my pupils, that is why HE went.  But twice?  I found out a few things - Cataracts, on both eyes; no big deal.  The Doctor also discovered I have the beginning of Macular Degeneration.  AND, I need new glasses.  Whew.  He also didn't like what he saw on the lining of my eye.  I have to go back for more testing.  I DID get to have a quick lunch with Vicki, one of my friends in New Port Richey.

Being in church yesterday was a real treat.  I haven't been able to attend for a long time. We are between pastors, but it sounds like they are ready to decide-four men are being considered.  The youth minister spoke and did a nice job.

The Elders search for a potential pastor and narrow it down to several people.  The Elders are the ones who decide.  The congregation doesn't actually have much to say about who is selected. This is different than I've experienced.  My former churches decided by letting the congregation hear each candidate.  (Usually about 3 or 4)  Then the congregation votes, with the district superintendent having the final say.

This past week was better physically for me; not much pain-feeling better than I have been for a very lonnnnng time.  I didn't have to take naps to keep up the energy and get rid of the aches.  I don't know why; maybe the new meds they are giving me actually "kicked in."   I've gotten some work done here at home.  For whatever reason, I'm grateful.  I really don't know how bad I feel until the pain is gone.

Today was the first day of a set of three tests with "nuclear" medicine.  My "relative I can't mention" took me.  All my guys and friends have been awesome.  "He" had to drive back. I had a "slight" reaction to the shot; nausea, aching, and upset stomach.  I was there almost 1 1/2 hrs, for a ten-minute procedure.  Getting ready was the biggest part. Tomorrow and Wed, the "scans" will take about an hr each.  It is supposed to reveal any abnormalities in my body - tumor, infection, whatever.  Wonder what it will show in my brain?

The technician said I should stay away from the dog.  She says that it is recommended not to be close to babies or animals.  Ween is not happy about me not petting her.  Wait until she finds out she can't sleep on the bed tonight.  She will NOT be a happy camper.

Friday I  am supposed to go to MAYO in Jax.  This is the first time since December.  I'm taking paperwork to see if I can get a "charity" notation so that I can HOPEFULLY have my surgery in Jax.  The surgery is on hold anyway because of my heart and lung problems. Who knows?  I just try to take one day at a time.

Resting on the couch and starting to feel better.  I have to eat light because of the tests. I'm marinading chicken and will bake it.  That should be okay.  God is good.

D I V O R C E

Divorce is a travesty to God's plan and yet I am once again faced with the decision to do just that.  I gave Bob "preliminary" divorce papers for some information that needed to be filled out on the pages before it is filed.  He didn't seem surprised.  He's hard to read at times so I don't know exactly how he feels but he filled in the blanks and handed it back to me.

Yesterday was our 5th anniversary.  (Happy Anniversary)  We've been separated almost 3 years.  In order for me to not feel in limbo, I  think this is the next step in our relationship.  I really don't know whether he doesn't want to be married or he just doesn't want to be married to me.  He will not discuss anything with me.

Where does that leave me now?  Pretty much just as I have been yet I won't be married.  I pray this is the right decision.  I don't know what else to do.

One upper that I have to look forward to in the near future is the cruise on THE FANTASY. WAHOO!!!

I AM BLESSED

"The relative I'm not supposed to mention" just text me and asked if I wanted to go on the new Disney Ship, The Fantasy, for the maiden voyage.  DUH!  

Lobby of THE DREAM

I was privileged to go on the maiden voyage of the last ship, The Dream, and it was fantastic.  I can't wait to see the new one the last of the month.

REMEMBERING

Loss of a loved one can be devastating for someone.  The loss of a celebrity affects everyone.  Whitney Houston, Davy Jones, and Robert Sherman are three people who have recently died.  Robert Sherman is probably the least know of the three.  He and his brother Richard wrote so many songs and shows for Disney, I can only begin to list them.  Mary Poppins,  Jungle Book, The Aristocats, and the list goes on and on.

Whitney Houston was every one's favorite darling- songs, movies, directing; so much talent and gone entirely too soon.  I did not have the pleasure of seeing her in person, but enjoying her music was a past time for me.  The nation mourns with her family.


But Davy Jones was someone I had seen in concert many times.  He usually came for Disney's FLOWER AND GARDEN SHOW in the Spring.  He was a true showman.  These pictures were from his 2009 show.  Cute, personable, talented.  I enjoyed all his concerts.  Saying goodbye is always hard, for any reason. Not only will his family miss him, our world will miss him and his music, for music makes the world go around and lightens your heart. His did both.

FOOTNOTE:
Just found out that for Flower and Garden Davy's former partner in the Monkeys, Mickey Dolenz, will be taking Davy's place.  This will be a great way to honor Davy.

Change?

Over the years, I have had many, many "Charles" in my life.  Starting with my brother Charles, dated 3 or 4 Charles, engaged to a Charles, named my natural born son Charles, and my roommate Charles.

My backyard

Today is Charles Pugh's birthday (former engaged person).  Why have I remembered this date for over 40 years - I REALLY don't know for sure.  It's just one of those unimportant facts I have stored in my memory chip for a brain. Wouldn't it be nice to be able to change memory chips as easily as you can change SIM cards?  I would be sooooo smart and up to date on all my facts.  This could be a project for the Cupertino area of the world.

Yesterday I went to my pulmonary specialist.  My breathing capacity has gone down from February's test.  I asked what that meant and he said it meant I wasn't breathing well.  WELL, DUH! That's why I'm going to him in the first place.  So, I'm in for another round of testing with him.  I wonder - is there a limit to the number of tests a body can stand?  I bet I reached my limit a looooooooonnnnnnnnng time ago.  Oh well. Here we go again.  (I have a blood test tomorrow.  I hope I pass.  I better go study for it.)

Quiet Is Good

So far this week, it has been quiet in my corner of the world.  I only have one doctor's appointment and a blood test.  No doctors for Mock.  (Whew)

Ween is sleeping after a mid-morning breakfast of Doggie Food and licking my yogurt container.  I've decided not to feed her anything connected with "People Food."

We have been walking as much as possible, which is not far for me but we're building time and distance each day.

Yesterday was an exceptional day for me.  I went "shopping" for clothes; alone.  I DID have Barb on speed dial, just in case.  We figured out that I had not had any new clothes since she was down here the last time, which was over a year, maybe two.  I know "holes" in your jeans is again the "in" thing, but it's not my "in thing."  I finally found 3 pair of pants at Kohls and immediately quit.  That is more shopping than I want to do at any time.  I also had my allergy shots, did some grocery shopping, picked up some "drugs" from Target, and went to Honey Baked to purchase some Ham.

One of the problems with feeling good is that I try to make up for time lost and I usually feel bad the next day.  Today is an okay day.  Maybe I'm finally coming out of this "unhealthy" era I have been in for a while.  I certainly hope so. In any case, God is still good and in control.  I'm thankful for that.

Another Doctor

The appointment with the new Dr was Tuesday.  He's okay.  He wants to do more testing-blood work, nerve endings, and who knows what else.

He made several suggestions as to "WHAT" could be wrong - A-Z, but nothing definite until the testing is done.  It could be as simple as a B-12 deficiency.  That would be great and a quick fix.  We'll see.

I am so "sick and tired" of being "sick and tired."  I know that's a clique, but so fitting; and never being able to plan anything.

I am praying for healing - TOTAL.

Anniversary Plus

We finally got Julie and Bret to celebrate their anniversary, but it will be on Friday and Saturday.  The even better upside of the celebration is that I get to party with the girls. YAHHHHHHHH!  I so enjoy them and love to spoil them when I can.  They are turning into such wonderful young ladies.  They are definitely not children any more.  They are so beautiful - inside and out.  I love them so much.

Girls At a Concert; a while ago.

Ween loves having them here too.  They show her so much attention, and of course she hates that and always wants to sleep with them so that will be a highlight too.

What to do.  What to do.  So many choices; so little time.  (WAHOO)

Casting Crowns

Being unable to "schedule" things in my life is EXTREMELY frustrating to me.  My life is so much easier when I have a schedule and can stick to it. I am told I have CONTROL ISSUES.  I don't see it but I have always been able to do so many things - concerts, games, parties, etc. Now I can't.  I WANT to go.  I have even gotten ready to go. Then my body shuts down. Today was one of those days.  


One of my favorite groups was in town - CASTING CROWNS.  Awesome group.  The "relative I can't mention" had tickets, of course, and I was going to go.  I had until 3:00 to decide.  Trying to do too much, when you finally feel well, has always been a problem with me. Tom always said I "overbooked my time."  That hasn't changed much except I don't have the energy I once had, and I think I still do. Oh well.  


I am blessed in so many ways, I really haven't anything to complain about and so I won't.  Thank you God for all you have given me.  You are an awesome God.

Every Four Years

Celebrating my birthday or anniversary every four years would just be a big BUMMER in my estimation.  I can't even imagine not getting presents or at least some sort of recognition for my birthday, so when Julie and Bret say "Its' no big deal to not celebrate on the date every year" I was surprised.


I say it's a very big deal so I, personally, believe they should REALLY "Party" for their anniversary next Wednesday.  The relative I can't mention suggested a night at one of the "Theme Park" resorts.  Sounds good to me.  I hope Bret agrees, but if not, it's their anniversary not mine. They are so much a part of our lives, I can't remember when they weren't here, so I want to help them any way I can.  We'll see.


The question is "If you only celebrate every four years is that the opposite of "Dog Years?"  If you were born in say 2,000 are you only 6?  If that's the case, I really wish my birthday was on Feb 29.  I could relive those extra years.  Maybe I'd make better decisions.  As Julie would say, "Makes you want to say Hmmmmm."

Wow

Imagine the surprise when I checked on my bank account today and my money from IRS was there.  It's not a lot, but I finally feel like I'm digging out of the financial hole that I have been living in for the last 3 years.  God is good.  It's taken a while, but I realize more and more that my decisions, bad or good, have a direct affect on what happens next.  WOW.  I think I finally get it.  It's only taken over 40 years and lots of mistakes.  I really hope I remember this lesson.  I don't want to go through it again.  His rainbow is a sign of the end of the storm.  I believe in rainbows.  Thank you God.

Is this my life?

It seems like every week, I see more doctors and have additional tests.  What do they do with all that blood they take? Where do the x-rays finally end up?  And, what exactly is a CAT SCAN?  (I don't even have a cat.)  Do they do DOG SCANs?  And, what is with the "Waking you up to give you sleeping meds?"

John Gedding
HGTV

This week has been a "feel good" week.  One of my doctors has put me back on predinsone.  I hate the "eating like a hog" effect that usually results, but I usually feel so much better.  Yet, I felt better BEFORE I even started the meds.  Maybe it's been the anticipation of new meds.

The family member I can't name just came back from CA.  I wanted to go, but Drs won't let me do much right now.

He did send me a photo of one of my favorite HGTV's stars.

Tom, who has just moved to San Fran, sent me 2 doz BEAUTIFUL tulips; all sorts of spring colors.  His note said the flowers were a consolidation prize for not getting to come to CA.  Whatever reason, I'll take flowers any day of the week.  God is good.

On and on

For the most part, my heart is not "Dancing" as much any more; an occasional blip, but nothing like it was.  I'm on medication for arrhythmia.  I'm having problems with my breathing, so we're still supporting the AMA by visiting as many doctors and hospitals as I can.

Nap time

My pulmonary doctor did not like the X-ray from the hospital, so he ordered a "CT SCAN" and I had that Wednesday, but have not heard from his office.  I went to my "regular" doctor's office and she said "I'm going to live until I die," or words to that affect.

Ween is playing "saran wrap" as I was gone 3 days and she missed me.  If I shift positions, she jumps up to see what I'm doing or what is happening.  It is so nice to have someone who is concerned about you.

She is the perfect pet - eats, sleeps, potties rarely, and stays by my side. If she could only cook, we'd have it made.

Life is an Adventure (and not by Disney)

After spending several days in the hospital, I am finally home with my own 'pharmacy.' This time it was my heart. I have been seeing a heart specialist for 6 or 8 months and could never document the "crazy" dance of my blood pumping organ.

On my way to taking Mock to work Monday, my heart started doing it's "Cha Cha" dance. Some times it quits after a few minutes. That day it didn't.  My heart doctor's office is on the road I was using to return to the apt.  I called ahead and asked if they could do a "quick" EKG.  I didn't plan on the "dance pattern" my heart produced, nor the fact that my blood pressure was 169/97.  Being across from the hospital is convenient, yet...  "Let me stop and walk my dog; she's in the car."  They assured me I HAD to be admitted, then! They would take care of my dog.  I called "The relative I can't mention" told him the situation and he happened to be off work for a doctor's appointment.  He said he would get Ween and take her home. I text Mock the location of the car, and proceeded to be "wheeled" across the parking lot to Sand Lake Hospital. I probably get the prize for most tests this week.  "The relative" said when he arrived, the nurses were playing with Ween outside and letting her potty at her leisure.

Mojave Dessert and Wind Mills

My View

Tom is traveling to CA and should be there some time tonight. This is a picture out of his car window.  I can assure you mine was not as pretty, although it was a suite. Staying anywhere else is nice; even in the best of locations, there's still no place like home.

The First Born

Over the years, many things have happened; hard decisions have been made;  Today is an extremely sad day for me as my eldest "born" son is leaving this coast to relocate to the West Coast.  This doesn't sound like much, in the scheme of life, but for me the moon is probably closer.

Christmas 2009

Our relationship has not always been easy, but I have always loved him with all my heart - even before he "physically"  arrived.  The last few years before his father died, we had become closer.

The Boys

I had come to depend on the fact that he was only 45 minutes away.  If I did not talk to him, I knew I could go see him any time I wanted.  Even when he moved to DC, it was still a manageable trip.
Now it will not be so easy.  I already miss him.

Just Another Day

Probably one of the reasons I haven't blogged in a while is that I am now "handwriting" in a diary that was given to me for Christmas.  My handwriting is hard to read, at times, but I like it because I can put info in there I can't post.  Even at that, I still don't write some of my deepest thoughts.

Holidays were good.  Received much more than I deserved, but I am very grateful for all I was given.  Didn't get to see my oldest son, Tom, but I understand where he is coming from financially and time wise.

PIPPI and THE BOSS

I'm still waiting for a resolution to my health issues.  I've applied with Mayo for a financial "consideration" for my surgery.  I don't know how that will go or how long it will be before I hear something, but I'm hopeful.

One of our friends from NC is visiting and Mock is playing "tour guide" for her.  I don't have the energy or strength to do the parks any more.  In all honesty, I think I'm over the Magic and don't really need to visit again for a while. Breakfast at Chef Mickey's, dinner at Kona - that's about all I can handle right now.  (No one can beat Disney fireworks.)

Time has been spent lately trying to rest and get over an intense sinus and bronchial infection. Just now am I starting to get over the residual "cough" that has lasted since before Christmas.

Edward is having a play produced at Tampa Bay Performing Arts Center and we have tickets for it.  It should be "interesting" if not.... as Tom would say.  I'm very proud of his abilities and strength to be able to complete this production.  I'm sure he is a nervous wreck.

Tom moves soon.  I wish he wouldn't.  It's been over a year since I have seen him.  When he moves, it will probably be longer.  Getting to the "other coast" is quite an ordeal.  It will be interesting to see how it goes.

The relative I can't mention is traveling.  He will be going to San Diego, San Francisco, and of all places, Kalispel, Montana.  I wish I could travel like I used to, but unless something phenomenal happens, I won't be able to.  You never know - God is still in control.

MEDICARE DECISIONS

After visiting MAYO this week, I am teetering on which direction to move at this point. I've dealt with bureaucracy all my working days.  Sometimes I actually have been able to accomplish goals by circumventing the "red tape."  Sometimes not.

Even coming close to understanding the Medicare system is beyond my expertise of knowledge.  That is where I find myself now-trying to accept their decisions on when, where, why, what, where, and certainly not the how.  Medicare will pay for my pre-op and post-op care at the Jacksonville clinic.  The surgery MUST BE PERFORMED in Rochester, MN at a cost of about $150,000.  I must pay to fly there, stay in a hotel for the week after, and fly back after the surgery to have the post-op done at JAX.  And, I have to have someone with me. They don't even do the lesser expensive surgery in Rochester, which is what my doctor is recommending.  In addition to that, they do not have, at this time, a doctor that does the surgery at their location.

In JAX the cost of the operation my doctor wants to do is $20,000.  I still have to stay in a hotel near by for a week because of the post-op care, but I would not have to fly there. I still have to have someone with me, but I have a better chance of getting someone to stay with me here than going to MN for a week.  MAYO doesn't offer in- hospital care after surgery at either location.

NOW - someone explain to me why MEDICARE has to charge an approximate $130,000 additional fee for a surgery that is more invasive, not recommended by my doctor, and more expensive for me?  This just does not make sense to me.  Is this why people cannot afford insurance?  I am beyond frustrated and confused.

The Week That Was

Being blessed is so totally neat.  My friend Vicki, came over from Pasco late Monday and stayed until Wed.  Spent the day at EPCOT, ate our way around the 29 Kiosks that are there now, and went to "Eat to the Beat" on Tuesday evening.   Hanson is not one of my groups, but being with friends is so much more special that it was worth staying for the concert.  I rested Thursday, and today I am privileged to have another friend here today. We're going to Houstons in Winter Park for lunch.  It is always great to be with Ruth.  I'm excited about her visit.

Tomorrow Dean is bringing his Men's Group and Mock is letting them into EPCOT about 10:00, while Vicki is coming back to see another friend, Margaret, who is flying into OIA on her way to a cruise.  We get to take her to Titusville so we'll have some time to "catch up." Wow.  What a busy and joyous week.  Thank you God.

Concert or No Concert?

Amy Grant and Michael W. Smith are in concert here tonight. I'm supposed to go with Charles and whoever else is going-probably Julie, Bret and the girls. I'm not sure I want to go. Loving music does not guarantee you love concerts.  My hearing sensitivity and large crowds do not always allow me to go.  The noise level is usually overwhelming. These two are not especially loud, but people are crammed into an area that is too small, with noises too loud, and people not always in a good frame of mind, even in "religious" venues.  To me, it's not usually worth the effort. We'll see how it goes.  

Thanks

Thank you God for popcorn.

Power Source

Being without power for 3 days has helped me to focus more clearly on

MY  POWER  SOURCE.

Who do I depend on to help me with  MY "light" on reality?
What do I use as MY POWER SOURCE?
Where do I go when MY "LIGHT" is not on for me to see clearly?
When do I evaluate MY POWER?"
Why do I need a POWER SOURCE?
How do I use MY SOURCE for power?

Do I go to the PHONE or the THRONE when I am powerless?
If the Sunday morning sermon is boring and I resort to balancing my checkbook, what is wrong?
Is anyone else responsible for my power?

Having evaluation testing available to oneself, is not necessarily a good thing.  Oh, I can evaluate others and diagnose what is THEIR problem, but can I be objective when diagnosing my own idiosyncrasies?

Saying you have ADHD and knowing it, is like a doctor self medicating - It's probably dangerous or at least funny to some.  Tom used to say, "And what is going on at the circus today?"  He was referring to the noise level in my head. He knew that my head is an ever-changing chaotic mish mash of "THINGS" all happening at the same time.  Some times when I "check out" of reality, my "Circus" becomes my reality.  Sounds strange doesn't it. ( I don't think I've ever put that information in writing before.)  I like my "head" world better sometimes.  Fantasy is usually better.  That is probably why I've always liked Disney.

Right now, I am working on my relationship with MY POWER SOURCE - God.  I have always known He is in control.  I think my biggest problem is believing HE wants to help ME, personally.  I go in and out of relying on Him like I should, and letting reality take over my mind.  Reality says - "Hey!  You don't have (etc. insert whatever is the next think you want) and if God RELLLLLLLLLLLLLLY loved you He would get it for you."  Common sense tells you a good parent doesn't let their child have everything they want - only what they need.  So how does this "devil talk" enter my "CIRCUS?"

Getting tired of being sick and tired, I resort to reading about JOB.  What problems.  And, then his friends come to visit.  "Nuff said?"

God is good - all the time; All the time - God is good.  I HAVE TO stay in the scriptures, focus on Him and "lean not unto my own understanding."  And, when you get right down to it, what is reality any way?


My In Law Grandmother, Sally, was a wise christian woman.  One week-end just after I found out I was pregnant with Tommy, we were visiting her in KY.  I had been soooooooooooo sick and was having a hard time getting up to get ready for church.  She had breakfast ready, and I guess I kind of turned green. She looked me square in the eyes and said, "Sometimes the most religious thing we can do, is go back to bed.  Go on girl. Get back in bed."  She was my hero.  That is also Ween's best advice.  I think I will.  Progress Energy eat your heart out.

TODAY

Psalm 118:24


This is the day which the LORD hath made; 
I will (choose to) rejoice and be glad in it.
Amen!

Blessings

Once again, the "hurricane/tornado" type rain and winds have shifted and not hit our area. We are certainly blessed by God.  There are areas here that would have flooded and been such a mess to so many people.  I, for one, am grateful.

Mayo called and I have been approved for my surgery - that's the good news.  The "not so good" news is that I have to go to Rochester, MN for the surgery, and someone has to go with me. (Medicare)  I can't drive back and forth to the hospital for a week.  This certainly messes with my No 1 rule of life - "Never go north of Florida after Nov 1."  I have an appointment at JAX Mayo on November 14.  I should know more details then.

Tomorrow is a birthday of  "relative of mine I cannot mention".  He will be in San Francisco with some friends.  Kenny's birthday was 16th, so they usually celebrate together, but here not in California.  I will miss him, but he is celebrating how "HE" wants to celebrate.  There is nothing he needs nor cannot afford, so buying him anything is hard.  Not having any extra cash right now, also makes it hard to buy him anything.  He has an abundance of patience with me and says he understands.  I'm glad he does, because I don't.  We will go out to eat when he comes home.  He will decide.

Another Day

Please tell me why the phone rings or "dings" indicating a text message when I have just allmoosst gone to sleep?  Is there some sort of indicator in my body that lets my phone know EXACTLY when to get my attention?  Or, maybe a diabolical plan within the circumference of our universe that stops me from warming my pillow during the day?  It is amazing to me how this happens.

On the other hand, "WEEN" can sleep any time, any way, any place.  She is so good at sleeping that she can sleep right through the smell of hamburgers crisping in the pan, or chicken "dancing" in the skillet, or yogurt being heaped into a clunky bowl for a healthful, nutritious breakfast that I 'HAVE' to eat daily.  

Noise is another issue with her.  NOTHING passes those ear drums.  ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!  She can hear a gnat "pass gas" at 30 yards.  If I use the word "GO" or the equally important word "CHICKEN" she is in the living room faster than an eye blink. She is truly an anomaly, and more fun than cotton candy.  Her snoring; don't get me started.

I actually consider Ween a wonderful gift from God.  She makes me laugh.  She makes me cry. She loves to snuggle with her having belly rubs first thing in the morning.  If that doesn't happen due to "MY FAULT" then look out.  She will surely indicate her displeasure in some way.  Ripping apart something or even worse, leave her "oopsies" on the floor, right in front of the door so I won't miss it.

She's very good at snorting her displeasure especially when I tell her no.  She doesn't like that word at all.  Come to think of it - neither do I.  She's a lot more like me than I thought.  We could possibly deserve each other.  She's busy holding down the bed right now, and guess who is not.  Yep, that would be me.

True Identity

Just back from church, and as usual, Dan gave me a lot to ponder.  The biggest question is "How do I evaluate my Identity?"  One of his comments struck home.  "When you understand your identity in Christ, you understand your life in Christ."

Far too long I have listen to negativity about my identity and who I am.  That has prompted me to "feel" unintelligent, incompetent, and viewing a DISTORTED view of who I am.  His statements have caused me to reevaluate who I am and where I am at this time of life.

I have to revert to my two basic ideas - GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL, and, HE LOVES ME.  These two ideals have kept me "steady" for the last few years.  I had forgotten to remember them.  I am now determined to refocus and re-identify who I am in Christ.

BUT, just now I am going to lay down and watch a football game on tv today. ( It usually puts me to sleep.)  Outside it looks like a typical day in Kentucky, dark, damp, and dreary.  Hopefully, this weather will go away soon.  Ween needs company.  She looks awfully comfortable.

Support Your Local Doctor

Many of you know I believe in supporting the AMA-daily, weekly, monthly.  It doesn't matter.  I have seen multitudes of doctors in the last 2 years; had a myriad of tests, and NOTHING much wrong.  Fibrymaligia, bad back, high blood pressure, overweight, and the list goes on BUT mostly due to poor or bad choices.  I'm tired of being analyzed.  


Yesterday I went for my "stress" test at my heart doctors.  ( As if I don't have enough stress in my life.)  My primary doctor suggested this.  According to the tests, everything is fine; no blockages, no abnormalities, nothing to report.  So why do I have the abnormal heart beat occasionally?  They have no idea.


I can't believe I'm falling apart at my age.  I'm no spring chicken, but I'm not "under" the hill so to speak.  I WAS reminded this week that about 10 years ago telling the devil to "take his best shot" and that he could not do anything to me that I couldn't handle, with God's help.  (ME AND MY BIG MOUTH.)  I don't know about God, but I'm tired of the devil hindering me.  


TODAY!  THIS VERY MOMENT!  I rebuke the devil and anything he has to "HEAP" on me.  I'm tired of letting him have his way in my life.  I will no longer accept "WHATEVER" happens to me and I will only make the right choices as God desires for my life.  I'm ready to fight back!


I WILL PRAISE HIM; I WILL PRAISE HIM. PRAISE THE LORD FOR SINNERS SLAIN
GIVE HIM GLORY ALL THE PEOPLE.  FOR HIS BLOOD WILL WASH AWAY EACH STAIN.


Our pastor is starting a study in Galatians.  Paul tells the people of Galatia (mostly Gentiles of converted Jews) that they are not "locked into" following the old laws to be followers of Christ - circumcision, killing a calf for our sins, or confessing their sins to another man.  We are free to live for Christ.


Why were laws given in the first place?  Laws are to show us how to exist; right and wrong; how to live in society.  If you don't BREAK the laws, they don't apply to you.  


When a certain relative of mine went to work for a local "large Orlando employer" he brought home about 20 books on the "correct look" for employees that work for that company.  I looked at them and said, "Man.  That's a lot of info to remember."  He said, "It's nothing I don't already do."  And, that's true. When we follow the mores of society, we don't break laws.  Even more importantly, when we follow the dictates of God we keep His laws, with the Holy Spirit's help, just as He meant for us to do.  

We need the rain.  Even if it is a messy, dreary day outside, inside my heart:


"THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HATH MADE; 
  LET US REJOICE AND BE GLAD!!!"

New Day

Breakfast with  Joseph, Kim, Brandon, and Mock.  I always enjoy those times. We have all worked together at one time or another - if not in research then at the call center.  Cindy forgot and Kathryn couldn't make it.  Sometimes others join us and it's an even bigger "good time."

Mock and Brandon both worked last night and they "HATE" mornings.  They are suggesting lunch time or even dinner.  I can relate.  In some ways working at night is harder.  It turns your whole schedule around; you sleep when everyone is awake, and work when everyone else sleeps.  It's hard to do anything but work and sleep.  It gets boring after a while.  Even when you have 2 days off, you still have to catch up on your sleep.  It's crazy.

Ween had a rough morning of sleeping, eating, and potty breaks.  Sometimes, she is just worn out by the end of the day.  She's sleeping now.

I think I'll play my "Lazy Day" song.  "Today, I don't feel like doing anything; I'm just wanna lay in my bed.  Don't feel like picking up my phone.  So leave a message at the tone.  Today I swear I'm not doing anything."

Ween started without me.

ME

Contemplation of my life has left me to believe that I am not doing all I can do to help others.  Right now I am physically and financially unable to do much of anything, so how can I help?  I can pray, encourage, hold their hand, hug, and genuinely be concerned.  


Writing this is to relieve some frustrations I have right now.  Physically, I hurt all over almost daily; breathing is hard, blood pressure is high, thyroid is not working again, easily bleeding which usually means my blood count is low and the white count is high.  MAYO has diagnosed some problems.  I still have some testing of my heart to determine why I am having irregular heart beats.


MS has been talked about.  Memory loss, all my symptoms previously mentioned, and a few other problems lead me to believe maybe they're right.  If they are, it's okay.  I just wish I knew for sure.


I'm sorry I couldn't be the wife for Bob he needed.  I'm sorry I haven't been the Mother that the boys have needed.  And, I'm sorry I haven't been as close to God as I need to be.  I'm just tired - physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  Oh God - hear my prayer.

Beautiful Surprises

Today has been an interesting day.  So far, I have received three neat presents from God.  To me, those are gifts I knew nothing about and "just happened" during the day. And yet, I'm reminded each time that they are from God.

One of my "bad habits" is to fold any paper money and just put it in my pocket. When I reach for something else in my pocket, I usually pull out the money. Most of the time, I see it and just put it back.  Today, as has happened before, I pulled out my phone to see the time.  After I had left the first Dr's, I reached in my pocket to see how much money I had to "possibly" buy a Starbucks, and the money wasn't there.  I almost had a heart attack.  That $30 is all I have until the 14th.  God help me.  What do I do?  Do I go back to the Dr's and ask if anyone had found it?  Do I just forget it and hope for the best?  Or, go back after I get my shots?  I went on to the Allergist.  When I got out of the car, "my little inside voice" told me to look under the seat.  It was there.  (Surprise 1)

On the way to the Allergist, I wasn't watching carefully enough and the car in front of me did not start up when the light changed, and I softly "rear-ended" the car. As we moved into an empty lot to the right of the street, I was praying very intensely.  I just really didn't need an accident right now.  The man got out of his car, looked at his bumper and said, "Looks like there's no damage. It's okay."  I apologized "profusely" and thanked him repeatedly, and got back into our cars and drove away. (Surprise 2)   (Angels working overtime today.)

My friend and "energetic example" Mary helped me clean out some boxes of "stuff" that had been in the 2nd bedroom since I moved to this complex.  In one of those boxes, a computer program entitled "Illumina" popped up and surprised me to pieces.  This was a program that I got when I worked for Family Christian the year before Tom died - about 11 years ago.  Technology has changed so much, I thought it probably wouldn't work with this new system I have now.  Guess what!  It works perfectly.  In fact, it may even work BETTER than it did then.

If you have never seen this program, I'm sorry.  One of my jobs at FC was to demo this program to people when they came into the store so that they could see how useful it is.  Duh.  That was a joy that I had while "working" during the day.

The program is one of the best references for the Bible I have ever seen.  I haven't updated it but I can only imagine how it has changed.  And yet, how much better can " THE MOST AWESOME PROGRAM" become?  This was God's third present today.

Not only did I get the room cleaned out, but I found so many neat things. Thanks to Mary!!! God is good; all the time.

FACEBOOK

Later today, I will be leaving the FACEBOOK website.  I have been made to realize that I spend far too much time on Facebook and not enough time doing what needs to be done with my life.  My email is sheila.stovall@gmail.com and of course, you will be able to keep up with what is going on in my life within this blog.

I liked using Facebook to communicate with people I had not heard from in an extremely long time.  I also liked working on the games.  I will miss that mode of communication.

Best wishes and prayers to all who transfer to this site.  Thank you for all your advice and prayers.