Anyone have tissues?

Is it okay to call all tissues "Kleenex?"  Probably not, but whatever you want to call them, I need some.  Somehow I have developed a sinus infection and have probably blown my nose so much I could probably paper my bedroom wall with the amount of tissues I've used.  In fact, I think I saw that episode on HGTV, starring Vern Yip.  I now have antibiotics, sprays, inhalers, and most anything else I can take to try to stop the drainage.  (Yes I know, thanks for sharing.)

I actually have been feeling so much better lately that I am even considering going back to work.  I have an appt on June 30 at Mayo.  I will get an update on my progress.  I am now on a Bipap machine and have been sleeping quite well at night, except to get up to blow my nose.  This machine is quiet and I have a nose clip that I use instead of the face mask.  It has 2 levels-one to start and then it ramps up to my prescription amount on the 2nd level.

I have a friend going with me to Mayo.  It was somewhat confusing when I worked with her, as her name is Sheila too, but we have remained friends and I really appreciate her friendship.  Since I haven't seen her for a while, we will have a lot to talk about while we motor to JAX.  We've decided to make it a "road trip", maybe even staying overnight on the beach.  Who knows?  But then again, we could also end up in Tallahassee.  We might have to pick up that Lottery winnings.

Is Honesty Really a Good Policy?

When someone hurts your feelings, what should you do?  Tell them?  Ignore it?  or come back with some sort of "retort"?  I'm never sure how to respond. I try to ask questions to find out why they feel that way, but usually I am so surprised that I can't do anything at the exact moment.

Yesterday was one of those days, one of those comments, and it came from a "friend."  I had just been to a movie with this "friend" and she text me, and when I opened it she said, "You are so mean; you hate everyone."  How do you respond to that?

I responded with "What makes you say that?"  Her response was, "Everyone thinks that."  I asked her who thought that and where was this remark coming from.  She said it would take too long to explain, but she would talk to me soon. (She left it at that)

My youngest son says I have control issues.  My husband "implies" I can't do anything right.  And now, from a friend I'm mean and hate everyone?  I don't know.  I must be a horrible person, but I don't see any of that.  I try to be kind to everyone.  I have no control over anything-sometimes not even my body functions.  I don't hate anyone.  And, I know of a lot of things I can do right. So, where do I go from here?

Green Acres

It's a good thing I have a smart GPS or who knows where I would be today - trying to decide whether to play the theme song from Deliverance on my banjo, or sing "bop bop, Green Acress is the place to be; farm living is the life for me..." decisions, decisions.  There were slight apprehensions when I couldn't find 2 streets my GPS was trying to direct me to take.  Only later did I find out that the name of 2 of the streets had been changed.  Needless to say, I did not have the faintest idea where I was or in what direction I needed to go. 

I stopped by to see my friends who have moved to "God's Country" in North Florida.  I use this title because even the satellites on my phone or car could not get any signals; only God can reach this place easily. 

It WAS peaceful and quiet - The birds were the only things"twittering". Trees, trees and more trees; lots of quiet, and more trees.  I DID sleep 9 hrs that night which might or might not have had to do with PT at Mayo, and a 4.5 hr drive in the sun, or a very long day beginning very early.  Who knows for sure.  I do know this-it was good to see them after a very long absence.

These are the type friends that are always there-no matter how long between visits, we just picked up where we left off.  We all went to college together 40+ years ago and have lived close to each other several times in those years.   In fact, two of the three times I've been married, Byron facilitated.  We have a lot of history, and they are very dear to me.

Since then, I've been visiting drs, picking up information, and continuing to try to get healthy.  I now have a "bipap" machine to help me breathe better at night.  I am sleeping longer and deeper which allows really wierd dreams.  I may even include one or two sometime just to let you know how really crazy I am.

Tonight we are going to MK to see the former electrical street parade and new fireworks.  It will certainly be a good time had by all.