Life is usually "happening" so fast, that I rarely look back and try to analyze events. Within the last few weeks though, my employer has been "reducing" their work force. With having approx. 62,000 people to choose from, it has been chaotic for many people who depend on their designated income for mere existence and have very little left over for any extras in their lives. I have seen close friends and even slight acquaintances fear for their jobs and wonder continually - AM I NEXT? I can only imagine it must be similar to trying to walk on eggs.
I am truly blessed in that I don't "HAVE TO" work but I have felt the "air of fear" within our company and it makes me extremely sad and disappointed in techniques I have seen that are not customarily evident with leaders in the almost 4 years I have been here. This has caused me to take a look back at my experiences there.
So many times in the prior year I tried to change jobs. I probably applied for 30 or 40 positions that I was MORE THAN QUALIFIED FOR and was unable to move. I was more than disappointed and at times even depressed by the fact that I felt unqualified even with all my education and experience. These were emotions that I had not felt in a very long time and it scared me a little. I was able to move to my current position in September and have learned to start appreciating all the information that is necessary to run such a large company. (I had no idea and I have only moved to level 2 of the training.)
What causes me to look back now? All of the above, and probably the impending anniversary of Tom's death. It is unimportant WHY I am examining circumstances, just that God has reminded of each and every position that was previously available. Every one of the positions have either been eliminated or reduced in amount of pay due to the crunch crises that is now happening. ISN'T GOD GOOD. Even when I didn't know, even when I couldn't understand "WHY NOT", even with all the disappointment, God protected me and saved this job I now have just for me.
I am reminded of my experience in Israel where He told me He would take care of me - IF I LET HIM. Many times I have tried to take over and it never works. Why do I keep on trying? I am me, and HE still loves me, gently leads me back, and reminds me of HIS promise once again.
WHY DOES IT SURPRISE ME THAT GOD IS GOOD?
