Doctors are only "Practicing" medicine, right?

Another week of drs and appointments.  It seems like that is all I do some weeks.  I was at Mayo for an appt with my orthopedic dr.  Status quo, I guess. He wants me to have surgery to remove the spurs from the spine.  I don't think I'm ready to do that for several reasons - I want to wait to have the stomach surgery, I don't like the idea of them working on my spine, and I can still maintain with pain pills and aspirin.  So, we'll wait.

I've also had blood work, a CAT scan (I didn't even know I had a cat) and will have a breathing test at the Dr's office tomorrow.  I've had some breathing problems and he wanted to check all possible reasons for it, including the diagnosis and progress of the sarcoidosis.

Let's see - is there any Dr I haven't seen lately - Nope.  I'll just have to wait for the diagnosis and results.

I have recently had my phone off.  This has sent some people into cardiac arrest, or at least upset to some degree.  They could not imagine that I would ever do anything like that.  Some times I just don't want to talk or hear the phone.  That is not computable with some people.  I have a hard time dealing with some issues in my life right now, so my SOP (Standard Operational Procedure) is to "back off" and regroup.  I know it is evading issues, but at the time that's all I can do, for my own sanity.

I've always liked the Beach Boys and one of their older songs is "In My Room" by Brian Wilson.  That song and Mandisa's "Stronger" are my lead songs right now.  I'm trying to process and I don't know how or why.  So, I follow Ween's idea of "sleep it off."  She's my hero right now.

NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE

What do I do now?  I've never been fired before.  Part of it wasn't my fault.  Yeah, I know that has been said before, but this time it's true.

To begin with, the person I followed each day did not like me.  She made it very clear.  I don't know whether she was jealous or what, but I knew it from the beginning.  Every chance she got, she "reported" to one of the Managers every mistake I made.  And, I didn't exactly impress two of the three Managers with any aspect of my work.  One even told me to take off my necklace.  I told her I never take it off.  It's a religious icon for me.  She put that on my record card as a reprimand. The "record card" is kept on every "mistake" made and is on file for all to see.  I haven't any hope of anyone even considering me for another job with the record card I accrued in this position.  You also get points taken off when you're out sick.  I had taken off sick twice.

In all honesty, I did not balance the deposit one time while working there.  To being with, I had 4 trainers - all  4 did things differently so it made it hard for me to get a take on "HOW" I was supposed to complete the work.  I was $100 over last Sunday and $24.25 over on Monday.  No one could figure out how that happened.  I learned tonight that the person I followed was "short" $100 on Sunday. Duh. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out what happened there. Only no one bothered to tell me at the time.

So, as I said, what do I do now?