The Ides of March (Latin: Idus Martias) is the name of March 15 in the Roman calendar. The term ides was used for the 15th day of the months of March, May, July, and October. The Ides of March was a festive day dedicated to the god Mars and a military parade was usually held. In modern times, the term Ides of March is best known as the date that Julius Caesar was killed in 709 AUC or 44 B.C.
Checking some of my journals, this time of the year, seems to be more "mopey" or even "indecisive" for me. That's the only way I can describe it. Being in therapy, I can usually recognize the warnings, but sometimes they slip up on me and I get "down" before I can realize it.
Melodie Beattie's book "The Language of Letting Go", is so much a part of me that I could be the post child for it if she needs one. Today she says, "Sometimes the way is not clear. Our minds get clouded, confused. We aren't certain what our next step should be, what it will look like, what direction we are headed. That is the time to stop, ask for guidance, and then rest. That is the time to let go of fear. Feel the confusion and chaos, and let it go. The path will show itself. The next next step shall be revealed. We don't have to know now. We will know in time. Trust that. Let go and trust."
Wow. That is so me lately. When I moved to FL, almost 40 years ago, there were very few days throughout the year that were NOT sunny. In fact, The St Pete Times had an offer that if the sun failed to shine some time during the day, the paper was free.
As most everyone knows, we have had a dreary winter. Maybe that is one of the reasons for my funk. I'm not working outside the apt, which I have done most of my life. That could also contribute. In addition, I'm awaiting testing, cleaning out closets, readjusting my lifestyle. And, it's raining most of the day today. It probably isn't any ONE reason. At least for today, I will practice waiting, trusting and resting. So simple. Who knew?
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