Monday, April 05, 2010

ONCE AGAIN

It's been another year without Tom; eight altogether now.  The "wound" is not so raw; it just aches.  Not a day goes by that I don't think of him and what might have been.  I know God loves me and wants the best for me, so why wasn't Tom that "good" that I needed.  As my friend's grandson used to say, "I can't know."

Wednesday I will do my usual "hiding" thing somewhere by myself and try to get through the day one more time.  I'll try to remember the events of THAT day; my friends; the numbness; the police; my sons; and, I'll get through it again.  And, I'll go on.  My biggest question is "Why not me?"

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